Drama, Drama, Drama

originally blogged October 29, 2006

Why do people try to drag me into their drama? I'm a pretty easy going, laid back woman. I don't ask for much, and I don't expect much. I try to be a dependable friend. As far as my love life is concerned, I don't worry about it too much...and if I don't worry about it, you shouldn't either! I figure...whatever happens, happens, right? The good Lord has told us to take all our worries to Him. Right? (1 Peter 5:7) So...that's one area of my life that I don't worry a whole lot with...and it's usually because I keep myself busy with other things. I admit, I get a little down when I spend too much time around disgustingly happy couples. But for the most part, I'm ok!

So here's my aggrivation...guys that WANT DRAMA in their lives! Why can't I get rid of these guys?? Because I answer yes/no questions (via text messages) with yes/no answer, I am apparently a bitch? If you need to talk to me, CALL ME! Quit bothering me with nonsense smalltalk! I don't get pissy when you don't call me or don't text me, so don't get upset if I don't have time to send you a detailed text about the past 2 months of my life. Obviously, you haven't been interested enough to talk to me for 2 months to call and talk for 3 minutes...so why the heck should I give you 3 minutes of my precious time? "How are you?" "Fine, thank you." Tell me, please, how that is me being a bitch. Ugh!

IN ADDITION! I have another certain someone that only talks to me, again, every few weeks. Everytime we talk, he gets mad because "You don't like to talk about sex." ARE YOU KIDDING ME?! Ok, first, I don't know you that well. Second, you just aren't that lucky. THEN...he accused me of being a lesbian? Do you need a copy of my resume? So I asked, "Why do you talk to me if you always just end up getting mad at me for some apparent reason?" His response, "You don't care about ANYTHING!" So....my response was, "Ok...so would you prefer if I were high maintenance and crazy dramatic about EVERYTHING?!" He quit talking to me at that point. Why do guys say that they want a woman that isn't high maintenance, has no baggage, and has no drama...but it seems, they really do! And if they do, then why the heck won't they leave me alone?! It's not like I'm just all of a sudden going to start dressing differently, pop out 2 youngins from 2 different men, and complain about every little thing I can think of. That's just not who I am. So ya know what, if that's your thing, then just leave me alone. It's not that difficult. I mean, yeah, I have a wonderful personality, cute smile, and a contagious laugh, and I could see why you'd really want to hang out with me, but I'm sorry. Those attributes are for those individuals who are anti-drama and anti-worry warts!

If you've made it this far, congratulations. I hope you don't think I'm against the possibility of love...because I'm not. I want to fall in love someday and have a family...but I don't want my life filled with constant bickering and childish ways. And for that reason, I want to take my time and make sure I'm making the best decision possible. He will come along. Or maybe he already has and he just needs to figure that out. :) And I'm ok with that.